unSmize...

Smh...
recently I did a photo shoot w/ this photographer  (& I think I'll use that term loosely) and all I can say is Jesus wept...Definitely was not doing any smizing (smiling w/ my eyes) on this shoot whatsoever.

It's true when you have a attitude or some type of distraction while shooting it WILL always show in your photos.. words to the wise: no matter what or whomever may have you pissed off or put you in a bad mood while on set.. take a min, clear your thoughts and move on. The last thing you want are weak shots after a long days work. Christian (bf) once told me "A negative
moment will only last so long, but a photo can last 4ever." .. very true Chris.. to sum it up, dont let your temporary attitude fxckup you lifetime image.

ultimately this shot had potential to be so much more, but in my eyes it's just "ohk" #Kanyeshrug

Bestfriend vs Boyfriend...

UUGGGHH!
- A girl and a guy can't be "bestfriends"...
- oh yo bestfriend huh? mmhmm
- when yall break up? how long yall was together?

HEARD IT ALL!
This has been and I am convinced will be an ongoing headache!
It never fails... I always get the 3rd degree or some shxt about my bestfriend. Not only do I hear it because he's a boy.. and in the relationship world that shxt just doesn't fly 99% of the time. On top of that I have a tattoo of his name on my ankle. (adding gas to the fire) It's no secret me and my bf are close, and we have always been that way since we were young.. i really don't find any difference between our friendship than i do w/ my female bestfriend other than gender.  


-Bestfriend-
The one that gives you thier shoulder to lean on, laughs at and with you, lifts you up when your down, supporter. ..I went to the shop and got his name tattooed on my ankle at my own free will. No one held a gun to my head.. i didn't lose a bet or any of that other bs... nor did I ask him to get mines.. I love my bestfriend.  He got me through some days where had he not been there 4 me, i really can't say what i would have done,... or where i would have ended up.. I thank God to have had such a good friend when i was so young & still the friend ship remains.. 

                                                       VS.


-Boyfriend-
Your like, your love, your interest and supporter, friend, lover, and heart... Of course no man is going to jump for joy about seeing another mans name on his girl. OK i get that.. i understand that, but what i don't understand is the lack of trust that goes behind it.
Or more than that the whole need to measure up to "his" standards. If I'm with you I'm with you.. had I wanted to be with "him" I'm sure it would have happened by now.

                                                      =Equals=


-Headache-
1) ok so you love him.. you say you love me but you don't have my name tatted.
2) get it covered.
3) If yall were just bestfriends, why you get it in the 1st place?
4) I don't like him "you don't know him" I don't need to know him.
..... .. ... . & all the other bs!


-Resolution-
it all falls down to TRUST, if you trust that there is nothing more between the two friends that just that. A friendship.. then the issue should be solved just that simple.
I know sometimes you have a girl who's "bf" happens to be her ex and vise versa, so i can't say I blame dudes for being suspect but damn... I mean don't play yourself, if you know they more then some damn friends then stick around a bee bozo the clown if you want to... 

New Photos... (UNedited)

Droping these off...
see I have flaws too... these are unedited..
(the real me) . . .might use them for something..
might not.. fun shoot tho.

a Model Mayhem...

For any1 who may have missed it...
-even tho I am shamefully late on posting this...
Here are a few photos from my most recent photo shoot w/ the Freshest! herself... @NEEFFRESH

& a couple behind the scene's N things.. .. .

for more of NEEF FRESH's work click here: NEEFFRESH

To: Mommy's w/ ♥....

Happy Mothers Day♥


-- I'm blessed to have 2 mommy's. 
most of you know I was adopted when i was 3, by Patricia..... (my mommy) & I ♥ her w/ all my heart.
1 week b4 my 21st B-day. ..I was "found" by my younger sister (which i had no clue I had) of my birth mother... which led up to me meeting my birth mother Vanity. LONG story short... a good year & some change later I'm blessed to be able to tell both of my "super hero" mothers HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!.. 
   


Just wanted 2 share.. I guess now I have to fill you all in on the adoption story...
another blog, for another day. xO 

Dirty Laundry...

Whoa!
so last night my 1st time on Tinychat .... (i knw im late) all beans were spilled, long story short me, @chioma_ & @Iambuttenz were the life of the party lol. Buttenz got grilled 4 not asking me 2 the movies...(long story), i looked like trash my hair was a mess, and Chioma being a great friend tried her best to reconcile our (buttenz & I) previous relationship. We talked about lies, strippers, me getn dragged down the stairs, the infamous 99cent store fight, parties, & to top it off the break up. I ,, no "we" were once engaged..... -sad face- crraazzzyyyyy, madness, bananas, FUN.

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